It took me a long time to realize that I don’t have to wait for people to come back around. It’s a struggle for a lot of foundlings, we fall in the entrapments of waiting, wondering, and forgetting that we don’t have to leave this world lonely—just alone, like a circle. And that too can be beautiful.

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Listening to Jungle Jim by Hugo Largo – https://youtu.be/s-sRwEYE-Pk

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Listening to Laveda – https://youtu.be/h3a4CRlLvYQ

Her Name Was Betty // This was her voice.

She was inhaled out of me so quickly.
Every year I attempt to write a poem
that will kill Death itself. Every year,
I fail. I will never stop trying. Ever.

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Wind opens a page,
sea-salt coats my evening tea—
many moons dive in.

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Listening to Ceremony
by Galaxie 500 – https://youtu.be/92Nkrav2-Aw

The hardest day of the year
begins with lifting the receiver
and saying her name on my
amateur ham radio. CQ…CQ…
CQ…Calling all stars. Make
way for my weak frequency.
I don’t speak the language
of my dead as fluently.

#loss #17years #betty #mother